Loving someone completely means giving them your heart, soul, body and mind. What happens when your heart and soul love someone, but your mind and body refuse to follow? For Calvin Caldwell, being the lead guitarist of America's hottest rock band 69 Bottles has its perks. Performing night after night with his closest friends, he finds peace with a guitar in his hands. Playing music wipes away his unimaginable past, albeit temporarily. He struggles not only with who he is as a person, but with who he wants to become and what he is hiding. Being in love with someone certainly isn't the problem. He's been in love for a long time, but what defines him is what keeps him from the person he loves. Seeing something you so desperately want, but can't have... Eric Richardson knows exactly what he wants out of life. He wants to play bass with his friends because performing gives him a high better than any drug he's ever used. Being on stage is where he feels most comfortable. But what happens when being on stage is no longer enough to satisfy him? What happens when the person he loves, doesn't love him in return? You fight for it. You define it. You prove it. A rock band, A tour bus, One wild ride... ***CONTENT WARNING *** This book is not recommended for anyone under the age of 18 due to the following content and more: M/M sexual content where nothing is off limits. So If two men turn you on or give you a reading rush other books can't, then this books is for you.