Henny Winter (1950) was a successful clerk, Dutch teacher and secretary. For years, she was busy with questions about God during her childhood and its impact on her life. At the age of sixty, she can finally articulate this. She believes and hopes that sincere attention to other people is the most important thing in life. Currently, she gives painting lessons, creates pencil drawings and studies Arabic. In this partly autobiographical novel is the mother who represents the life of her child. She wanted to raise a child who has "fear of the Lord."" The anxiety and fear of the mother interprets the life of the daughter in a penetrating way. It is the story of a strict Calvinist upbringing as well as the story of rebellion against those melancholies. Despite the strict rules and struggle, love still prevails.