An emotional and eye-opening account into an alternative, adult lifestyle known as HotWifing. HotWifing is a sexual fetish in which the husband approves and encourages his wife to pursue sexual relationships with other men, ultimately to bring the couple closer together and strengthen their relationship. Many couples may enjoy the experience of fantasizing and talking about this together, but never follow through with it. This personal, compelling, and true story, by first time author Mila Guerrerra reveals the challenges and risks of the lifestyle. She candidly shares the impact it had on her life, family, and twenty-year marriage. Guerrerra vulnerably and authentically talks about how she became stuck in a self-destructive cycle of second guessing herself. She ignored her own intuition that led to a break down physically, mentally, and emotionally. When her husband, became apathetic and abusive, Guerrerra was forced to face the reality of her mistakes and the crumbling state of their marriage. Guerrerra navigates the emotional and complex marital relationship from her viewpoint. A myriad of issues arose in the marriage - breakdown in communication, sexual conflict, manipulation, illness, narcissism, parenting strains and eventually divorce.