First loves weren't meant to strip you bare and leave you for dead. Static shakes my eardrums, a prelude to consequences of my choices. Before I taunt myself to remember. One pummel after another, the abyss greets the conscious state, and I'm glad my soul at least finds safety. Areas of my body contract from the pressure of the punches, lips hum a song I only remember from childhood fear. A kick to the chest is one last attempt to cover my boyfriend's treachery. Bred in a town of bigots, growing up along the bible belt. Calhoun's life has been burdened by loyalty. To his father, to the family name, to his twin Kalonie. But another secret is being kept quiet, a passion that has proven to be poisonous. As a second love approaches, Calhoun struggles to understand if it's his guiding light or the final nail in the coffin. METANOIA: Calhoun's Courage is the 3rd book in the Mum's The Word Series +18 Sexual Content and Mature Language. Sensitivity Warning.