A raw and honest story of alcoholism, recovery, and courage in the face of loss

Hayley Holt grew up in the public eye. On our screens for over twenty years, her highs and lows have been aired for everyone to see. Now it's time to share her side of the story.

Raised a dancer in bedazzled dresses and fake tan, Hayley was taught to smile and dance to each tightly choregraphed step. Underneath she was an introvert, socially awkward and unsure of who she wanted to be. When she discovered the freedom of professional snowboarding, she threw herself headfirst into the lifestyle and found a better self at the bottom of a bottle: confident, easygoing, the life of the party.

In this vulnerable memoir, Hayley opens up about the self-doubt that eventually drove her to self-destruction. As her high-profile media career grew, she spent nights drinking, getting kicked out of clubs, and blacking out. She describes the scare that led her to Alcoholics Anonymous, her journey to sobriety, and a late-in-life ADHD diagnosis that brought everything into focus.

Then, single, age forty, and at the peak of her career, Hayley embarked on a widely reported ‘miracle’ pregnancy that was cut short by a devastating miscarriage. In the darkest place of her life, she found hope in a blossoming new love, the support of her family and the strength in herself to carry on.

Heartbreaking and life-affirming, filled with Hayley's wicked wit and charm, Second Chances is about hiding your true self, finding the courage to confront your mistakes, and learning that even the deepest pain can be followed by the greatest joy.